decision made

well i've already made the decision haven't i? just one last step of confessing

i told me that i am like, almost 100% sure that i'm gonna go to cuhk. i think they get it.

if not, i'll say it clearly soon.

i found love

things cannot be easily changed between us. i love the way we are. 'cousins' doesn't even perfectly desribe our relationship. we're way more than that.

we listen to each other, and most of all, we don't just listen, we take in what the other brings us. that's what i think.

i feel like no matter how far from each other we are, we're still closely connected.

maybe that's why i'm not so scared of everything in life :)

失敗

我呀…
其實我昨晚和他談了兩個多小時電話，所以才會弄至三時才睡。
好頹廢。我不想自己這樣。
但真的很難拒絕。

嗚嗚—快點上大學吧。我想脫離這種對生活的無奈。
我想找到點什麼可以讓我緊緊捉穩。
時間快點走！

help...:I

just... i don't even....

my life is repeating over and over again. always falling for someone wrong. i don't even know if i can say that this time is better coz i haven't really fallen for him for a long time. so i can pull myself out easier and quicker.

does it work that way though?

my 'dry' life. my freaking life.

why is this always happening to me? omg what will my future bring me? i'm not anticipating that part anymore...

SPRING!?

it feels like spring is coming today! bright sunshine and refreshing grass-smell.

And then it's 10 days till I go back to Hong Kong! keke


...not falling...not...not ><

what am i doing right now...

LIARS!

oh wow stop lying! this is way across the line dude. don't just steal and take what she said as yours. this is such a selfish move and you have no idea how much of a big deal this can be. use a fking brain. if you just make up stories and everything, it's fine, i don't care. but when you take someone's effort and claim that is yours, then this is just way too much.

and out of most fking all, you misinterpret what she said. MAJOR FAIL.

seriously, no matter if she's telling the truth or not, you still can't just do so to make more people believe in you. fking grow up. you don't even know what you're doing anymore. this can even be about putting someone's job at risk, for christ's sake.

lying doesn't bring you anywhere.




and haha you like ._. and i like :I

HATERS TO THE RIGHT ----->

i just want to help, that's all. i don't think i deserve this, but what can i do? everyone has their right to express their own opinion. and i cannot hide from them, so i can only face them bravely and explain patiently. if at the end they don't like what i'm doing, then i can't help and i have to respect that.

why is this even stressing me out?


and ahhhhh >< attractive but no! cannot give in! i'm doing great on my own!